I am beginning to fight a fight, to be a warrior. It is a fight for a soul, and it’s wrought with dark spiritual battles. I have been buffeted by them for weeks. I have taken a stand — drawn a line in the sand. I have taken the side of God, my warrior master. And I am fighting on behalf of love and beauty.
 A relationship I was in for two years recently crumbled.  No, it disintegrated. If you can imagine it, it happened. A wedge has been driven in between me and the one I love. No, I am not married to her, but I believe God has that in mind for us. And I say that with a complete lack of circumstantial evidence that it will ever come to pass. It is a peace, as it says, that surpasses understanding. And I am taking a risk. I may have to eat my words. God will have to entirely reformat my heart.
For now, I will battle on her behalf. Deep, ferocious prayers. And the attacks have come my way. Cars swerving at me head on. Massive attacks of anxiety. Sleepless nights. Random evil thoughts that I have never entertained before — ever. I kid you not. You take God’s side, and you’re in for a ride.
 And what are my guarantees? None. The best I can hope for is God’s direction in it all. And nothing less. While I’d like to say He knows what is best, I yearn to see what that means for me during this dark time.
Hi Alex! True Love doesn’t constitue anxiety, grief or blame. God made Love for living it. The absence or presence of Love in a lifetime is just momentuous and hence not to be concluded as the final outcome. Love teaches to be humble, to be receptive, to be honest. Just feel like seeing you smile again with the beautiful spirit of Love. Love is eternal and remains forever. It’s all a cycle of life, the muses of Love are eternal beings and measure the amount of effort we put to bring in happiness around.