This his been my recent lot in life. I find myself relating a lot with David. Imploring God to get me through deep times of pain. And the pain continues. And the tears flow. It’s a wierd, cathartic hell. And I hope it doesn’t last too long.
When I gave up, you held up
When I ran out, you filled me up
When I kept runnin’, you kept up
When I let you down you lifted me up
This is the way love is
From This Is The Way Love Is – The 77s
I won’t bore you with the details of lost love, alzheimer’s, parenting parents etc. Come to think of if, I also resonate with Job right now, though he lost a lot more than I have. And he came through it a better man.
 I just don’t see the glimmer of hope at the end of the tunnel yet. But I ask God for it. Daily. By the hour actually. I am going through the crucible for whatever grand purpose God is preparing me for. And I am pissed that I can’t grasp His purposes quite yet. Why do I have to go through all I am going through, all at once? Only Divine Time will tell.
you know i’ve been around
around the track
was bound to lose
‘cuz i was too far back
and then you
made your move upon my soul
i had to get ya ‘fore i got too old
you saw the gaping
hole in my heart
i let this world tear it all apart
you filled it up & filled it in
you didn’t care where it had been
Thanks for sharing honestly.
I’m glad to know that I’m not the only one feeling like “why do I have to go through this to get to purpose”. Howbeit, I am willing because I can’t imagine anything apart from God!